有时候
你真的很想改变，
可是为什么别人都看不见？
你很努力地去改，
可是，也许是改变地不多，
别人看不见？

一个人很努力地去改，
可是没有人帮他，
没有人支持他，
那，他要怎么改？

很努力地去改变之后，
换回来的是别人的冷嘲热讽，
那有什么意思？

我不明白
我真的不明白，
从以前到现在都不明白，
为什么要我为你们改变？
为什么不是你们为我改变？

我很念旧，
好的坏的我都记得。
我不说并不代表我忘了。

努力的过程得不到认可，
得不到帮助，
我不再做了。

无论我解释一百次，
一千次，
你都认为我无中生有。

你有试过真正地了解我吗？
我为你打开心房，
就只想你了解我，
可是你就只看见表面，
认为自己很了解我了。

我，
两次放弃了接纳我想法的人，
放弃了在我身边安慰我的人。

我告诉你，
你不谅解，
没关系，
会有那么一天，
会有一个人，
可以体会我，
感受我。

你说的，
我不会再听，
任何人说的，
我都不会再听，
我只听我自己。

只有我，
才了解自己。

我从来都不喜欢解释，
我任由你们误会我，
误解我，
我也不想解释。

误会，
是因为你不信任，
解释，
只会抹黑事实。

从此以后，
我不会再听，
既然你违背你的诺言，
你，
就没有理由再要我听你的。
记住，
永远都不会。

你以为自己让得多，
问题就少了，
其实只会被吃得更凶，

我
对，就是笨，蠢，无知。

不要太执着，不需要把每一件事情看的那么重要，
不要把自己绑的太紧，
要放开点，
为什么要让自己为了一些事而难过？
为什么要这样难为自己，
明明就可以很开心，

把它看的太重要，
让自己陷得太深，
到最后吃亏的是自己。


其实，一直以来都有一个想法？
是不是越容易得到的，就越不珍贵？
或者稳定得让你不放在心上？
要失去了才后悔吗？

人
是犯贱的一种动物。

random

当他不是真心爱你时，
他可以找一百个理由来离开你。

虽然你不是最好的，
至少你对我不离不弃。

Something was not right,
Something went missing,

I couldn't tell,

Is like i don't know you anymore..

I'm currently addicted to The Vampire Diaries and Gossip Girls!
Man!!!
Every Tuesday i'll be very excited!!
Like i can't wait to watch them!!:D

I wasn't watching The Vampire Diaries during their first season,
I mean i've heard about it but i don't really watch it because i was still in the Twilight series..
Is like,c'mon,it's just another blood sucker story :p
Then i started watching it like when i accidentally turned to that channel..
So we have Stefan and Damon,the super man man vampires,
And of cause Elena,the pretty girl in the story..
Stefan is different from Edward but i like them both!! :P
Stefan is drinking Elena's blood everyday,
How romantic was that!!:P
Anyway,
I think Vampire Diaries teach us more about vampire's rule than twilight did..

Blair,Chuck,Serena?
Too much of name to be remember because i dont watch them in the last 3 seasons,
Hmm..
Only a few times...
I found it's interesting xD
And i can see lots of nice clothes XD
I started to put my attention on the couple,
Blair and Chuck..:D
Serena-too many boyfriend XD

I used to be a die hard fans for ghost whisperer:D

I watched Ugly Betty, NCIS(NCSI??XD)
Kyle XY,Supernatural!!!!
And so much more that i couldn't remember XD

Wohooo!!!!!

random

I almost forget how much i love you..

Is that neccessary that everyone must act like a grown up even you're not or you don't want to?

Why i can only feel the sweetness before it's actually starts?

When you're getting into a relationship for too long, you almost forgot on what's love?

Why do people cheat on their partner?

What's the feeling of getting married and divorce?

So you're too easy with her/his present that you don't really need to do anything?

And the romance gone?

Why do you care if you wish to ignore later on?

You expect all the girls to have one attitude?

You expect guy to do everything that you wish for?

You say i'm not telling you but i thought the feeeling is mutual?

Love each other more day by day?

Or getting away?

Not neccessary or you're just being lazy?

After 10 years, family or still lover?

Why cant everything go back to those days when we're just flirting with each other? :)

English no good =.=

I'm having exam..
I mean soon..
I wasnt nervous,
But I'm stress..sigh..
I had my period,
It's pain,
Makes me feel dizzy..
Can't focus..

I always knew what should i do..
But i'm too lazy to push myself..
I'm getting lazier..

That subject was the most expensive among the others..
That's why i'm stress..
Memorizing wasn't my favourite part,
That's why even with all the tips that i got,
I still unable to score an A.
It's too hard to memorize all the answer without really understand it..
I always forget on what i've learned,
No matter how good i was on the spot,
I tends to forget everything on the next day..
That's my weakest point..

I love to learn but i hate it when it has to comes along with the exam..

I'm streas...
I need someone..
Someone who willing to listen,
Who willing to comfort me a bit..

Sigh..
When is this going to end?

You were once meant so much to me..
Not now,not any more..
You came all of a sudden,
And you left without saying good bye..
You lie....
Again...not much but twice,
I was so naive that i trusted you,
So stupid that i believed on everything you said.

I'm glad that you left,
Without turning back.

And i found him.
Someone better.
He will loves me more.
And i love him the most.

I'm writting this for myself.

You can leave if you feel uneasy.

The scariest part of it is you're trying to disconnect her from the outside world

他发生这种事情后，
我一直很留意你，
很意外的，让我觉得你这个女人真的没什么了不起，
名字不用说，大家心知肚明。

那一天，
我心情很糟，
第一次看到这种事情发生在我眼前，
我还在想，
要不要让你知道，
毕竟你们最近走得还蛮进的，
可是朋友都说，
不要，怕你接受不到，

可是，原来大家都猜错了，
你根本不担心，
或者，我可以说，
你根本不放放在心上对吧！
因为你觉得不关你的事！

我，真的留意你很久了，
你很过分！
在他好好之前，
就拉拢他，要他在学业上帮你，
我不怪他，毕竟人都是比较重色轻友的`。

我以为只有我这样想，
原来还有人也那么认为！

一开始我就对你没什么好感，
你让我有种虚伪的感觉，

他是我的好朋友！
你要是对他不认真的！
只想利用他！
麻烦请你离他远很多点！不是一点！
无事不登三宝座的女人！

当然，日后他好起来了，
你再靠近他，利用他，
我是不会有意见，至少我不会在他面前说你坏话，
你这种人！对！就是你这种人！
丢尽女人的脸！

你是我第一个在大学里看不起的女人`！
你，榜上有名咯！

What makes you feel like you're so important??!!!

因为老婆好，所以才会有小三!!!

要的人不理我！
不要的人一直找我！
就快心理不平衡了！

本小姐今天心情糟透了，应该是自己胡思乱想，摆脱，我很少emo的，因为不好看，
可是今天我....心情很糟..不需要你安慰，不需要你关心，
习惯了没有别人的安慰也会自己开心起来，看了不喜欢，不要多多意见，不要批评我，
这是我的地方，要放屁请走远些，我就是很情绪化，不喜欢？滚远些！真不明白，为什么那么多意见！
不安慰就算，不要惹我！
我没说你，你不是你！所以不要自以为是！
我今天就是很不爽！

A day out with aunt part 2

After I got my present,
We went to this 'Goku Raku Ramen'( if I'm not mistaken )
It located at the second floor at Mid Valley,
First, when we look at the restaurant,
Macam tak Ada orang pun,
Very quite,
I don't see many ppl or noises coming out from the restaurant,
Anyway, we did give it a try lol..
Well,very nice the place,
Lots of ppl dining there,
Nice service,
Everything's fine...
Nice food! Big bowl!! XD
I like the 'xiu pork' haha
Super nice!
They Slice it, look like sashimi..yum yum :)
Not very expensive :)

A Day out with aunt

I went to mid valley on this Sunday..
Aunt wanted to get me a watch as my 21st birthday present :)
She was so insisted of getting me a swatch,
Well seriously,
I don't really adore their watch,
I had one last time,
My ex bought it for me when I was 17,
If I'm not mistaken the price is about 200 bucks,
Not very fancy design,
Look more like a watch for a kid =.=
my friends thought it's a free gift from the kfc kids meal =.= wtf
They don't realize it until I told them it was Swatch lol!
I don't really take care of my swatch since I don't really like it,
Scratches on the surface,I ignored..
The strip turned to yellow cause I sweat lots? Maybe?
Anyway it's a plastic strip..
And I throw it away after I've been wearing it for 4 years..
The watch still work,
But I hated it because it got all the scratches on it and the ugly scratch >.<
I told my friends about this and they said I'm too stupid because I just throw away an expensive watch!
Lol they didn't tell me why so I thought it qa just simply because it was expensive =p

So I went to swatch on that day.,
I know I don't like it but what to do?
The one who buying me this wanted a swatch,
Not even considering others like DKNY,ESPRIT....
And finally, I manage to get one:)
Price = RM 325 haha
Again,not a very fancy design compared to other brand,
so it comes together with 2 years warranty,
And they also provide after service,
The lady even mentioned that if I got a scratch on it,
They will help me to polish it..
I can even change to any different strip that I want in the future
(mine is stainless steel)
So now I know why they scolded me last time
T.T
Anyway,
I'm happy because I got a brand new watch!:)

Awwww

Yes! i'm broke!

Just came back from Amway's HQ,

Bought so many things!

All make up stuffs!

Artistry product..

I was into that free gift- A cosmetic bag

And i bought a Liquid foundation,

Powder foundation,

eye liner and also a concealer,

And these cost me more than 300++!!

Walao!!

I swear i'm going to kill myself if i'm not using it!

I SWEAR!!!

Damn it, My Aus trip spoil spoil spoil!!!

I haven't try on it,

But soon i guess....

Hopefully i will use it =.=

Not hopefully but MUST!!!!

MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bought a bikini from internet,

Online purchase..

It is a blue color bikini,

I plan to wear it when i go Aus to visit Alan,

It's summer during that time =)

AWWW beach!! XD

I'll suggest all of you to get a bikini top with wire,

make sure you can buckle up the back but not tie it up only,

For more security XD

我说 Alan Chang 你很肥啊？

miss you =(